Why should my first night and abandoned
I have experienced the love of two students are high school students, first met A year students gathering to meet after graduating from college, said to be very clever, high school crush on him, but he then women friends, classmates, he began to contact me to say this is my first love (the beginning of the high schools and universities has been caught up, but never seriously talked about), and then we together, when he was still in graduate school, I work came to his city, I thought I could be together forever, but not last, six months after we broke up, in fact, I was breaking up, he felt that our personality clashes, there is enthusiasm, a lot of topics chat, a long time, probably think I’m bored, grow cold I, according to him after he said I was too cold, there is no response to his enthusiasm that he did not have enthusiasm. Said here, my character, my character is partial within, sometimes it does not like to express their enthusiasm, but also because the first love, even though I really like to like him very much, but do not know how to draw near to him. Then we parted, I also reflect on own really own this problem, not cheerful personality, including his friends I am cautious, tense, first love relationship.
This relationship so that I am in pain about a year before coming out, I continue to work to stay in the city.
The following speak another section of the feelings.
In June this year, another high school classmate B through QQ, and later met only when the general relationship between students, he was single, but also know I’m single, back home, when met with the side (he was in another The city has been to buy a house). Before normal, enthusiasm is limited to ordinary students, but met the day Beats by Dre Headphones, we are just going out to dinner, chat would one day meet it two hours, I went home and he The overzealous sent me a text message, said later want to give me a call can come look at me, I said: you still so good-looking, I think high school when our class you’d better look kind of thing. I understand what he meant.
After I came back to work, he called me every day, but I’m not disgusted, he is not so assertive people, high school think he is also a character is not a particularly pleasant person, he just had to get along with him four years of his girlfriend broke up before going to want to get married, want to get married a few months before, broke up, the woman find a better condition, followed by others abroad. He and I talked about things into, he said he had waited for her for three years (they do not work in one place). Then our daily contact telephone one hour per day, he also seat train saw me twice, during which I have not promised to do his girlfriend, he said give me time to accept him, and I am not disgusted him, but Iconsider is, I am afraid to take the former old road.
Contacted two months, I have proposed do not want to contact him, I think to go on like this is not the answer, he has to buy a house in that city, if we are together bound me to him, he also said that this will, after all, He is also a unit of state-owned enterprises, job stability, I also understand, but I’m afraid to walk past the old road. I refuse to him after he disappeared, no phone, no message, the original QQ stealth settings I can see also lifted, simply do not see him on the line, I knew he was certainly very sad.
Then three days later, I do I find it ridiculous, I took the initiative to look for him, I found that I liked him, he suddenly disappeared I feel very empty, I suddenly feel that I am willing to try again for his After all, I do not, in fact, he is also a good candidate, very nice to me, he wanted me to go to his city, he said he felt that he will make my life happy, but he told me warm when I has been lukewarm, when I get back to him, he said before he really had lost hope, said I let him understand that a lot of things, can see that I was really broke his heart. I told him I would go to his city, but give me two months to find a job. He agreed.
I restore him, but did not restore his heart, the phone two days to play, each have nothing to talk about with his topic, also very happy to chat with him, then his attitude began to change, and I also imagined. . . I also went once to him, before he, too, wish I could see him, I went to, but inevitable, he took the case of the the paternity St. capsule relationship, and I was the first time, that is, coming back this time I more apathy, and send text messages back very slowly, making phone calls always said not to hear, not like this, he was anxious to give me one day to play three times a phone, said he wanted me. So, at last he gave my text messages so that we are tired. So break up. This distance from his back, but only 10 days.
Separate nearly a month, I was very sad, regret should not be so hasty to put their hand out, that they have is the older, now is not complete, it will hate him, hate him irresponsible, but it will to blame myself, I sent home to, I did not hold on.Now think about him before and after the attitude of turning point, I refuse him that, before he is really good, that he get back the feeling of first love, I feel I’m fine with me he will be very happy, but also I have a wonderful time, in fact, knew that the so-called rhetoric of some of his words, but still deep into the incorrigible.
I have some self-examination, really think I was wrong earlier, refused to hurt his heart, but go back to find him, and he is dead of a heart, this story should be ended after he refused that the v moda crossfade lp pearl white headphones. But think about it, he is irresponsible, if he really think that time we can not, can also be asked to break up completely ah, say it and not only went to his, he is deliberately revenge me? Only three months from start to finish.
Dolls, my two feelings of failure, I admit that my own reasons, I was too passive, and not that smart girl, and sometimes no principles, willing to lower profile for the so-called love, but only if I know they love me, do pay, but after the pay, or get the job, I do not even figure out where the problem lies in the, the two broke up to the last are in fact there is no communication, first cold violence, pushed I can not stand, only to go the way of breaking up, but also as they would like to, I think I may deal with feelings is not mature enough. I’m afraid the next time again to encounter such a thing, and my small circle of acquaintances, lovers and even fewer can develop into, so always be locked in by the students.
Baby, you help me analyze the feelings of a second is not really my fault, he is not really like me, Is this what I should accept the punishment? Flies very happy now, about love and confidence, that men are three minutes enthusiasm, soon to be Pentium III afraid of their own never quite found a good man.
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