but to settle my self there for the Remainder of my Life
I wrote to my Partner, acknowledging his Industry in the Improving the Plantation, and his Integrity in encreasing the Stock of the Works, giving him Instructions for his future Government of my Part, according to the Powers I had left with my old Patron, to whom I desir’d him to send whatever became due to me, ’till he should hear me more particularly; assuring him that it was my Intention, not only to come to him, but to settle my self there for the Remainder of my Life: To this I added a very handsom Present of some Italian Silks for his Wife, and two Daughters, for such the Captain’s Son inform’d me he had; with two Pieces of fine English broad Cloath, the best I could get in Lisbon, five Pieces of black Bays, and some Flanders Lace of a good Value.
Having thus settled my Affairs, sold my Cargoe, and turn’d all my Effects into good Bills of Exchange, my next Difficulty was, which Way to go to England: I had been accustom’d enough to the Sea, and yet I had a strange Aversion to going to England by Sea at that time; and though I could give no Reason for it, yet the Difficulty encreas’d upon me so much, that though I had once shipp’d my Baggage, in order to go, yet I alter’d my Mind, and that not once, but two or three times.
It is true, I had been very unfortunate by Sea, and this might be some of the Reason: But let no Man slight the strong Impulses of his own Thoughts in Cases of such Moment: Two of the Ships which I had singl’d out to go in, I mean, more particularly singl’d out than any other, that is to say, so as in one of them to put my things on Board, and in the other to have agreed with the Captain; I say, two of these Ships miscarry’d, viz. One was taken by the Algerines, and the other was cast away on the Start near Torbay, and all the People drown’d except three; so that in either of those Vessels I had been made miserable; and in which most, it was hard to say.